Saturday, November 23, 2013

Life Update

I haven't blogged for over a year. Why? I haven't a clue. Has my passion for blogging, crafting and fashion disappeared? Heck no!?! Lets just say, my journey in the last 13 months has been... interesting.

They say the first year of marriage is the toughest year and as blissful as our first year was together, it was quite a roller coaster in between all of the LOVE. After mine and Mr. Godinez's amazing, perfect nuptuals and wedding celebration, we hit so many roadblocks. I'm sure our trials are insignificant compared to what other people go through; but nonetheless, they are/were roadblocks. First, I returned to work after our honeymoon to a new boss and went through a couple transitions at work since September 2012. Needless to say, I had a lot on my plate and there was little time for blogging or crafting.

Wedding Shadow Box

Then around April, my husband was forced to make a change in his career, to say the least. There is so much more to the story but to sum it up it involved deceit and disappointment. He walked away from a business he helped build-up and we lost friends whom we thought would be in our lives forever. We also had to move in with my Mother, which has been a blessing in and of itself. We have our own room and I now appreciate what I hadn't appreciated before. Space. My Sister, who also lived here with her son until recently, setup a craft space in the garage for all of our projects. Sadly though, I haven't utilized that space as much as I would like to. I'm slowly but surely getting back into the groove of crafting.

To top it all off, at the end of July, while playing roller hockey at the local rink, Carlos fractured his fibula and dislocated his ankle. He had surgery to insert a metal plate and eight screws. Yikes! Thank you baby Jesus I have insurance for both of us and we have the support of our families and each other to get him to 100% recovery. He is now going through physical therapy and is doing very well. He can put 50% weight on his foot now, but until he's 100%, his best friends are his crutches. Me and his crutches have a love-hate relationship.

\Through all of this I have developed anxiety. It's a daily struggle and it's incredibly frustrating. I haven't been anxiety-free in over 3 weeks. I didn't have a primary care physician before this started and I can't find the energy to go through the list of doctors and TRY one out. I haven't had the best luck with doctors lately. I wish there was a reallllly good website for doctors reviews. A Yelp of Medical reviews. There are some websites out there but I don't think they're very really reliable. I need to get a handle on it but I'm not sure what's holding me back.

Although my future at work is still unclear, we don't have our own place to call home, my husband won't be able to walk for another two to four months, and I am suffering from daily anxiety; I'm ALIVE, I have LOVE, and I have amazing family and friends in my life. I've learned to adapt to change and also embrace change. I have also learned to look forward to change. Change is a scary thing but God closes doors only to open new ones and everything happens for a reason. I am simply BLESSED.

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